She told me she heard it from kids at school, but I knew she had seen me restrict and count.

She was only 5 years old.

I was terrified she would live a life like I had - scared of certain foods and obsessed with the scale.

I’d lost the same 10 pounds over and over (and over and over) and it was time for the dieting to stop.

I had little eyes watching me. She’s my why.